It has now been a little over a year since my last drug use. I share no pride nor surprise about this news, it just is what it is. It came about in a dramatic ending in a masterful collaboration between the forces that be and me. I attracted the situation that led to an overdose and […]

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We learn that conflicts are a part of reality, and we learn new ways to resolve them instead of running from them.

Basic Text, p. 90


From time to time, we all experience conflicts. It may be that we just can’t get along with that new coworker. Maybe our friends are driving us crazy. Or perhaps our partner isn’t living up to our expectations. Dealing with any conflict is difficult for recovering addicts.

When tempers rise, it is often a good idea to back away from the situation until cooler minds prevail. We can always return for further discussion when we have calmed down. We can’t avoid troubling situations, but we can use time and distance to find perspective.

Conflict is a part of life. We can’t go through our entire recovery without encountering disagreements and differences of opinion. Sometimes we can back away from these situations, taking time to reflect on them, but there always comes a time when conflict must be resolved. When that time comes, we take a deep breath, say a prayer, and apply the principles our program has given us: honesty, openness, responsibility, forgiveness, trust, and all the rest. We didn’t get clean to keep running from life—and in recovery, we don’t have to run anymore.


Just for today: The principles my program has given me are sufficient to guide me through any situation. I will strive to confront conflict in a healthy way.

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Scott’s Story

 My story is a story of ugliness, brokenness, unworthiness. It is a disgraceful story of God’s beautiful grace.

I’ve heard it said that for a drug addict who does not seek recovery, there are three ways out: ironically they’re all ins-: insanity, incarceration, or in the grave. I know I danced pretty close to the edge of all three in my teen years. I sampled more than a few mood-altering substances during that time, but I found my dance partner in crystal meth. She was my drug of choice and I fell head over heels for her. For nearly three years, during the time of life I should have been flirting with pretty girls and dating, finishing up high school and prepping for the real world, I was a hell-bent meth junkie. But here I am, relatively sane, free, and a helluva lot healthier than I was at 17-, 18-, 19-years old. Healthier physically, mentally and spiritually.

“There were only three ways out: insanity, incarceration, or the grave.”

via Scott’s Story — Hope Shack

Steps 1, 2 & 3 of Crystal Meth Anonymous

1. We admitted that we were powerless over crystal meth and our lives had become unmanageable.

With Step 1, we admit that we can’t control crystal meth or its affect on us (ie. we can’t use just a little; we make dangerous decisions) and we put using it ahead of everything else — food, hygiene, work, health, finances, loved ones, a home, etc.

2. We came to believe that a power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity.

In Step 2, we get hope. We admit that we can’t quit on our own; that we need help from something greater than ourselves.

Sanity = The opposite of insanity. Insanity = Doing the same thing over and over again and expecting a different result. With addiction, sanity usually means doing something different, new, positive and healthy.

3. We made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of a God of our understanding.

“A God of our understanding” is often called a “Higher Power.” You choose your Higher Power. It doesn’t have to be “God.” For many people it’s CMA program, the fellowship, nature, art, music — but, it cannot be you or the drug(s).

“Of our understanding” means it’s what we understand now. We don’t have to get what “God” is right now; just be willing, open-minded to your “Higher Power'”s guidance.

“There’s a Meth Problem on Grindr and Scruff — And No One Is Doing Much About It”


5 Things I Didn’t Know About Quitting Crystal Meth, Until I Did It — oficeandmenblog


It can be done! You can do it!

Most times with professional help or a group program like Crystal Meth Anonymous or Narcotics Anonymous. Click on these links to find meetings in your area.

Finding support from fellow addicts who are clean and working on their recovery is essential to you getting clean and staying that way. Don’t let the drug or addiction or guilt or shame or pain or sadness or desperation keep you alone.

Very, very few people manage to get clean and stay clean on their own. Regardless, though, it helps to know what you can expect.

Trying to quit meth? See what to expect

via 5 Things I Didn’t Know About Quitting Crystal Meth, Until I Did It — oficeandmenblog

Letting go of the past | JFT, March 24

It is not where we were that counts, but where we are going.

When we first find recovery, some of us feel shame or despair at calling ourselves “addicts.” In the early days, we may be filled with both fear and hope as we struggle to find new meaning in our lives. The past may seem inescapable and overpowering. It may be hard to think of ourselves in any way other than the way we always have.

While memories of the past can serve as reminders of what’s waiting for us if we use again, they can also keep us stuck in a nightmare of shame and fear. Though it may be difficult to let go of those memories, each day in recovery can bring us that much farther away from our active addiction. Each day, we can find more to look forward to and less to punish ourselves for.

In recovery, all doors are open to us. We have many choices. Our new life is rich and full of promise. While we cannot forget the past, we don’t have to live in it. We can move on.


Just for today: I will pack my bags and move out of my past into a present filled with hope.

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Something valuable to share | JFT, March 19

A simple, honest message of recovery from addiction rings true.

Basic Text, p. 51


You’re in a meeting. The sharing has been going on for some time. One or two members have described their spiritual experiences in an especially meaningful way. Another has had us all rolling in the aisles with entertaining stories. And then the leader calls on you… gulp. You shyly introduce yourself, apologetically stammer out a few lines, thank everyone for listening, and sit out the rest of the meeting in embarrassed silence. Sound familiar? Well, you’re not alone.

We’ve all had times when we’ve felt that what we had to share wasn’t spiritual enough, wasn’t entertaining enough, wasn’t something enough. But sharing is not a competitive sport. The meat of our meetings is identification and experience, something all of us have in abundance. When we share from our hearts the truth of our experience, other addicts feel they can trust us because they know we’re just like them. When we simply share what’s been effective in our lives, we can be sure that our message will be helpful to others.

Our sharing doesn’t have to be either fancy or funny to ring true. Every addict working an honest program that brings meaningful recovery has something of immense value to share, something no one else can give: his or her own experience.


Just for today: I have something valuable to share. I will attend a meeting today and share my experience in recovery from addiction.

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