Step One

We admitted that we were powerless over our addiction, that our lives had become unmanageable.

Step One


The First Step begins with “we,” and there’s a reason for that. There is great strength in making a verbal admission of our powerlessness. And when we go to meetings and make this admission, we gain more than personal strength. We become members, part of a collective “we” that allows us, together, to recover from our addiction. With membership in NA comes a wealth of experience: the experience of other addicts who have found a way to recover from their disease.

No longer must we try to solve the puzzle of our addiction on our own. When we honestly admit our powerlessness over our addiction, we can begin the search for a better way to live. We won’t be searching alone—we’re in good company.


Just for today: I will start the day with an admission of my powerlessness over addiction. I will remind myself that the First Step starts with “we,” and know that I never have to be alone with my disease again.

Copyright © 1991-2016 by Narcotics Anonymous World Services, Inc. All Rights Reserved


Steps 1, 2 & 3 of Crystal Meth Anonymous

1. We admitted that we were powerless over crystal meth and our lives had become unmanageable.

With Step 1, we admit that we can’t control crystal meth or its affect on us (ie. we can’t use just a little; we make dangerous decisions) and we put using it ahead of everything else — food, hygiene, work, health, finances, loved ones, a home, etc.

2. We came to believe that a power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity.

In Step 2, we get hope. We admit that we can’t quit on our own; that we need help from something greater than ourselves.

Sanity = The opposite of insanity. Insanity = Doing the same thing over and over again and expecting a different result. With addiction, sanity usually means doing something different, new, positive and healthy.

3. We made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of a God of our understanding.

“A God of our understanding” is often called a “Higher Power.” You choose your Higher Power. It doesn’t have to be “God.” For many people it’s CMA program, the fellowship, nature, art, music — but, it cannot be you or the drug(s).

“Of our understanding” means it’s what we understand now. We don’t have to get what “God” is right now; just be willing, open-minded to your “Higher Power'”s guidance.

Insides and outsides | Just For Today, March 31

Our real value is in being ourselves.

Basic Text, p. 105


As we work the steps, we’re bound to discover some basic truths about ourselves. The process of uncovering our secrets, exposing them, and searching our characters reveals our true nature. As we become acquainted with ourselves, we’ll need to make a decision to be just who we are.

We may want to take a look at what we present to our fellow addicts and the world and see if it matches up with what we’ve discovered inside. Do we pretend that nothing bothers us when, in truth, we’re very sensitive? Do we cover our insecurities with obnoxious jokes, or do we share our fears with someone? Do we dress like a teenager when we’re approaching forty and are basically conservative?

We may want to take another look at those things which we thought “weren’t us.” Maybe we’ve avoided NA activities because we “don’t like crowds.” Or maybe we have a secret dream of changing careers but have put off taking action because our dream “wasn’t really right” for us. As we attain a new understanding of ourselves, we’ll want to adjust our behavior accordingly. We want to be genuine examples of who we are.


Just for today: I will check my outsides to make sure they match my insides. I will try to act on the growth I have experienced in recovery.

Copyright © 1991-2016 by Narcotics Anonymous World Services, Inc. All Rights Reserved

Inventory | JFT, March 16

The purpose of a searching and fearless moral inventory is to sort through the confusion and the contradiction of our lives so that we can find out who we really are.

Basic Text, p. 27


Using addicts are a confused and confusing bunch of people.  It’s hard to tell from one minute to the next what they’re going to do or who they’re going to be.  Usually, the addict is just as surprised as anyone else.

When we used, our behavior was dictated by the needs of our addiction.  Many of us still identify our personalities closely with the behavior we practiced while using, leading us to feel shame and despair.  Today, we don’t have to be the people we once were, shaped by our addiction; recovery has allowed us to change.

We can use the Fourth Step inventory to see past the needs of the old using life and find out who we want to be today.  Writing about our behavior and noticing how we feel about that behavior helps us understand who we want to be.  Our inventory helps us see beyond the demands of active addiction, beyond our desire to be loved and accepted—we find out who we are at the root.  We begin to understand what’s appropriate for us, and what we want our lives to be like.  This is the beginning of becoming who we really are.


Just for today:  If I want to find out who I am, I’ll look at who I’ve been and who I want to be.

Copyright © 1991-2016 by Narcotics Anonymous World Services, Inc. All Rights Reserved

An awakening of the spirit | JFT, Feb. 15

“The last thing we expected was an awakening of the spirit.”

Basic Text, p. 49


Few of us came to our first Narcotics Anonymous meeting aching to take a personal inventory or believing that a spiritual void existed in our souls. We had no inkling that we were about to embark on a journey which would awaken our sleeping spirits.

Like a loud alarm clock, the First Step brings us to semi-consciousness—although at this point, we may not be sure whether we want to climb out of bed or maybe sleep for just five more minutes. The gentle hand shaking our shoulders as we apply the Second and Third Steps causes us to stand up, stretch, and yawn. We need to wipe the sleep from our eyes to write the Fourth Step and share our Fifth. But as we work the Sixth, Seventh, Eighth, and Ninth Steps, we begin noticing a spring in our step and the start of a smile on our lips. Our spirits sing in the shower as we take the Tenth and Eleventh Steps. And then we practice the Twelfth, leaving the house in search of others to awaken.

We don’t have to spend the rest of our lives in a spiritual coma. We may not like to get up in the morning but, once out of bed, we’re almost always glad we did.


Just for today: To awaken my sleepy spirit, I will use the Twelve Steps.

12 Steps of Crystal Meth Anonymous

1. We admitted that we were powerless over crystal meth and our lives had become unmanageable.

2. Came to believe that a power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity.

3. Made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of a God of our understanding.

4. Made a searching and fearless moral inventory of ourselves.

5. Admitted to God, to ourselves and to another human being the exact nature of our wrongs.

6. Were entirely ready to have God remove all these defects of character.

7. Humbly asked God to remove our shortcomings.

8. Made a list of all persons we had harmed and became willing to make amends to them all.

9. Made direct amends to such people wherever possible, except when to do so would injure them or others.

10. Continued to take personal inventory and when we were wrong promptly admitted it.

11. Sought through prayer and meditation to improve our conscious contact with a God of our understanding praying only for the knowledge of God’s will for us, and the power to carry that out.

12. Having had a spiritual awakening as a result of these steps, we tried to carry this message to crystal meth addicts, and to practice these principles in all of our affairs.

Crystal Meth Anonymous – Step 1

  1. We admitted that we were powerless over crystal meth and our lives had become unmanageable.

This is considered the most vital step in Crystal Meth Anonymous, and it is also the only step that members must work completely. If we do not accept this first step it will not be possible for us to benefit from the rest of the program. This is because it is only the feelings of powerlessness and unmanageability that motivate us to change our lives.

Powerless Over Crystal Meth Explained
By admitting that we are powerless over Crystal Meth, we say that they are unable to control our intake. This means that we now accept that we have lost our battle against Crystal Meth and no longer believe that we will ever be able to use safely. If we keep holding onto the idea that we may be able to use again normally at a later date it means we have not fully accepted our powerlessness when using. We may be able to stop drinking, but it’s likely leaving us susceptible to relapse. It is only by fully accepting powerlessness that the individual can move forward effectively.

Crystal Meth Causes Life to Become Unmanageable
In order to take the first step in recovery it is necessary for the individual to be humble enough to admit that they need help. Some people view humility as a type of weakness, but this could not be further from the truth.

It just means that the individual owns up to the reality that they do not have all the answers. Humility also means that the individual becomes willing to accept help for their problem.

The benefits of adopting this type of attitude is not only necessary for the first step but for all the steps. The advantages of a humble attitude in recovery include:

  • It makes it easier for people to pick up new information. Those who already feel they have all the answers have no desire to listen to anyone.
  • Humility means that people are not afraid to ask questions. When people are arrogant they don’t like to ask questions in case it makes them appear stupid.
  • A humble attitude means that the individual with not become overconfident in their recovery. This is important because it is usually when people become complacent that they are most likely to relapse.
  • Humility is a vital component of any type of spiritual path – not only the 12 Steps.
  • It is easier for people who are humble to make new friends.
  • Arrogance is an unattractive personality trait that repels other people.
    Humility means that people experience less stress in their life. They do not put pressure on themselves to have all the answers and have no fear about asking for help when they need it.