Steps 1, 2 & 3 of Crystal Meth Anonymous

1. We admitted that we were powerless over crystal meth and our lives had become unmanageable.

With Step 1, we admit that we can’t control crystal meth or its affect on us (ie. we can’t use just a little; we make dangerous decisions) and we put using it ahead of everything else — food, hygiene, work, health, finances, loved ones, a home, etc.

2. We came to believe that a power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity.

In Step 2, we get hope. We admit that we can’t quit on our own; that we need help from something greater than ourselves.

Sanity = The opposite of insanity. Insanity = Doing the same thing over and over again and expecting a different result. With addiction, sanity usually means doing something different, new, positive and healthy.

3. We made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of a God of our understanding.

“A God of our understanding” is often called a “Higher Power.” You choose your Higher Power. It doesn’t have to be “God.” For many people it’s CMA program, the fellowship, nature, art, music — but, it cannot be you or the drug(s).

“Of our understanding” means it’s what we understand now. We don’t have to get what “God” is right now; just be willing, open-minded to your “Higher Power'”s guidance.

Insides and outsides | Just For Today, March 31

Our real value is in being ourselves.

Basic Text, p. 105

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As we work the steps, we’re bound to discover some basic truths about ourselves. The process of uncovering our secrets, exposing them, and searching our characters reveals our true nature. As we become acquainted with ourselves, we’ll need to make a decision to be just who we are.

We may want to take a look at what we present to our fellow addicts and the world and see if it matches up with what we’ve discovered inside. Do we pretend that nothing bothers us when, in truth, we’re very sensitive? Do we cover our insecurities with obnoxious jokes, or do we share our fears with someone? Do we dress like a teenager when we’re approaching forty and are basically conservative?

We may want to take another look at those things which we thought “weren’t us.” Maybe we’ve avoided NA activities because we “don’t like crowds.” Or maybe we have a secret dream of changing careers but have put off taking action because our dream “wasn’t really right” for us. As we attain a new understanding of ourselves, we’ll want to adjust our behavior accordingly. We want to be genuine examples of who we are.

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Just for today: I will check my outsides to make sure they match my insides. I will try to act on the growth I have experienced in recovery.

Copyright © 1991-2016 by Narcotics Anonymous World Services, Inc. All Rights Reserved

Coke & Ice (A Love Story)

Didn’t matter that rent was due next week. Or that we had hardly any food in the house for the kids. Didn’t matter that we were going on 144 hours without sleep. Just make sure we have enough dope. And slowly but surely, we lost everything we had. Our apartment, my children, our families, our cars, almost everything we owned we destroyed by this was of thinking. Many times, because of our addictions, we almost lost each other.

In 7 days, I will be off meth and coke for 2 years.

Source: Coke & Ice (A Love Story)

God-centeredness | Just For Today, March 30

Gradually, as we become more God-centered than self-centered, our despair turns to hope.

Basic Text, p. 95

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What a glorious thing to have hope! Before coming to Narcotics Anonymous, many of us lived lives of utter hopelessness. We believed we were destined to die from our disease.

Many members speak of being on a “pink cloud” their first months in the program. We’ve stopped using, made some friends, and life looks promising. Things are going great. Then reality sets in. Life is still life—we still lose jobs, our partners still leave us, friends still die, we still get sick. Abstinence is no guarantee that life will always go our way.

When the reality of life on its own terms sets in, we turn to our Higher Power and remember that life happens the way life happens. But no matter what occurs in our recovery we need not despair, for there is always hope. That hope lies in our relationship with our Higher Power.

This relationship, as expressed by the thought in our text, develops over time: “Gradually, we become more God-centered.” As we rely more and more on the strength of our Higher Power, life’s struggles don’t have to drag us into the sea of despair. As we focus more on God, we focus less on ourselves.

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Just for today: I will rely on my Higher Power. I will accept that, regardless of what happens, my Higher Power will provide me with the resources to live with it.

Copyright © 1991-2016 by Narcotics Anonymous World Services, Inc. All Rights Reserved

“There’s a Meth Problem on Grindr and Scruff — And No One Is Doing Much About It”

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Our own true will | JFT, March 29

…God’s will for us consists of the very things we most value. God’s will… becomes our own true will for ourselves.

Basic Text, p. 48

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It’s human nature to want something for nothing. We may be ecstatic when a store cashier gives us back change for a twenty though we only paid with a ten. We tend to think that, if no one knows, one small deception won’t make any difference. But someone does know—we do. And it does make a difference.

What worked for us when we used frequently doesn’t work long in recovery. As we progress spiritually by working the Twelve Steps, we begin to develop new values and standards. We begin to feel uncomfortable when we take advantage of situations that, when we used, would have left us gloating about what we had gotten away with.

In the past, we may have victimized others. However, as we draw closer to our Higher Power, our values change. God’s will becomes more important than getting away with something.

When our values change, our lives change, too. Guided by an inner knowledge given us by our Higher Power, we want to live out our newfound values. We have internalized our Higher Power’s will for us—in fact, God’s will has become our own true will for ourselves.

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Just for today: By improving my conscious contact with God, my values have changed. Today, I will practice God’s will, my own true will.

Copyright © 1991-2016 by Narcotics Anonymous World Services, Inc. All Rights Reserved

5 Things I Didn’t Know About Quitting Crystal Meth, Until I Did It — oficeandmenblog

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It can be done! You can do it!

Most times with professional help or a group program like Crystal Meth Anonymous or Narcotics Anonymous. Click on these links to find meetings in your area.

Finding support from fellow addicts who are clean and working on their recovery is essential to you getting clean and staying that way. Don’t let the drug or addiction or guilt or shame or pain or sadness or desperation keep you alone.

Very, very few people manage to get clean and stay clean on their own. Regardless, though, it helps to know what you can expect.

Trying to quit meth? See what to expect

via 5 Things I Didn’t Know About Quitting Crystal Meth, Until I Did It — oficeandmenblog

Facing feelings | JFT, March 28

We may fear that being in touch with our feelings will trigger an overwhelming chain reaction of pain and panic.

Basic Text, p. 30

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While we were using, many of us were unable or unwilling to feel many emotions. If we were happy, we used to make us happier. If we were angry or depressed, we used to mask those feelings. In continuing this pattern throughout our active addiction, we became so emotionally confused that we weren’t sure what normal emotions were anymore.

After being in recovery for some time, we find that the emotions we had suppressed suddenly begin to surface. We may find that we do not know how to identify our feelings. What we may be feeling as rage may only be frustration. What we perceive as suicidal depression may simply be sadness. These are the times when we need to seek the assistance of our sponsor or other members of NA. Going to a meeting and talking about what is happening in our lives can help us to face our feelings instead of running from them in fear.

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Just for today: I will not run from the uncomfortable emotions I may experience. I will use the support of my friends in recovery to help me face my emotions.

Looking for the assets | JFT, March 27

7In accordance with the principles of recovery, we try not to judge, stereotype, or moralize with each other.

Basic Text, p. 11

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How many times in our recovery have we misunderstood the behavior of another, immediately formed a judgment, applied a label, and neatly tucked the individual into a pigeonhole? Perhaps they had developed a different understanding of a Power greater than themselves than we had, so we concluded their beliefs were unspiritual. Or maybe we saw a couple having an argument; we assumed their relationship was sick, only to find out later that their marriage had prospered for many years.

Thoughtlessly tossing our fellows into categories saves us the effort of finding out anything about them. Every time we judge the behavior of another, we cease to see them as potential friends and fellow travelers on the road to recovery.

If we happened to ask those we are judging if they appreciate being stereotyped, we would receive a resounding “no” in response. Would we feel slighted if this were done to us? Yes, indeed. Our best qualities are what we want others to notice. In the same way, our fellow recovering addicts want to be well thought of. Our program of recovery asks us to look positively at life. The more we concentrate on the positive qualities in others, the more we’ll notice them in ourselves.

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Just for today: I will set aside my negative judgments of others, and concentrate instead on appreciating the favorable qualities in all.

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