Anything! | JFT, Feb. 29

“Our disease has been arrested, and now anything is possible. We become increasingly open-minded and open to new ideas in all areas of our lives.”

Basic Text, p. 106


For many of us, our first few months or years in NA are a wonderful time. We’re willing to try anything, and our eyes are constantly opened to new joys and new horizons. Finally freed from active addiction, our recovery young and fresh, anything seems possible.

With a little time clean under our belts, however, there may be less urgency to our program. We might not be quite as willing as we once were to put to use the experience of others. We may have encountered a few seemingly intractable defects in our character, whittling away at the boundless optimism of our early recovery. We know too much to believe that anything is possible.

How do we restore enthusiasm to our recovery? We pray about it; we share about it; and we seek out the enthusiasm we are lacking. There are members—some with more time clean than ourselves, some with less—who have the enthusiasm we seek, and who will be happy to share it with us if we ask them to. To gain the benefit of their experience, however, we must practice open-mindedness and become teachable again. When we become open to new ideas and willing to try them out we’ll find that, once more, anything seems possible.


Just for today: There is always more to learn and someone to learn from in my recovery. Today, I will be open to new ideas and willing to try them out. As long as I am, I know that anything is possible.

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dark night of the body


illness and me don’t get along.

nope, no way.

i like to believe that I’m superhuman. Better than that. I have no kryptonite. I never feel tired, I never get hungry, I never have to slow down.

Crystal meth used to help me with that. I guess that’s why it was my drug for a few years. It fulfilled all these realistic expectations for a while.

until it didn’t. Until it became my worst nightmare.

Source: dark night of the body

The greatest gift | JFT, Feb. 28

Our newly found faith serves as a firm foundation for courage in the future.

Basic Text, p. 96


When we begin coming to meetings, we hear other addicts talking about the gifts they have received as a result of this program, things we never thought of as gifts before.  One such gift is the renewed ability to feel the emotions we had deadened for so long with drugs.  It’s not difficult to think of love, joy, and happiness as gifts, even if it’s been a long time since we’ve felt them.  But what about “bad” feelings like anger, sadness, fear, and loneliness?  Such emotions can’t be seen as gifts, we tell ourselves.  After all, how can we be thankful for things we want to run from?!

We can become grateful for these emotions in our lives if we place them in their proper perspective.  We need to remember that we’ve come to believe in a loving Higher Power, and we’ve asked that Power to care for us—and our Higher Power doesn’t make mistakes.  The feelings we’re given, “good” or “bad,” are given to us for a reason.  With this in mind, we come to realize that there are no bad feelings, only lessons to be learned.  Our faith and our Higher Power’s care give us the courage we need to face whatever feelings may come up on a daily basis.

As we heard early in recovery, “Your Higher Power won’t give you more than you can handle in just one day.”  And the ability to feel our emotions is one of the greatest gifts of recovery.


Just for today:  I will try to welcome my feelings, firm in the belief that I have the courage to face whatever emotions may come up in my life.

The Very Few Things I know About Addiction & Relationships


At least once a week I make time to read blogs and social media post with all whom I’ve connected with over the past years. And the theme on my “Newsfeed” this week seems to be about addiction and relationships.

On their own, addiction and relationships can take a lifetime to understand. However both together, is an entire other “monster.”

Source: The Very Few Things I know About Addiction & Relationships

“Pure” motives | JFT, Feb. 27

“We examine our actions, reactions, and motives. We often find that we’ve been doing better than we’ve been feeling.”

Basic Text, p. 43


Imagine a daily meditation book with this kind of message: “When you wake up in the morning, before you rise from your bed, take a moment for reflection. Lie back, gather your thoughts, and consider your plans for the day. One by one, review the motives behind those plans. If your motives are not entirely pure, roll over and go back to sleep.” Nonsense, isn’t it?

No matter how long we’ve been clean, almost all of us have mixed motives behind almost everything we do. However, that’s no reason to put our lives on hold. We don’t have to wait for our motives to become perfectly pure before we can start living our recovery.

As the program works its way into our lives, we begin acting less frequently on our more questionable motives. We regularly examine ourselves, and we talk with our sponsor about what we find. We pray for knowledge of our Higher Power’s will for us, and we seek the power to act on the knowledge we’re given. The result? We don’t get perfect, but we do get better.

We’ve begun working a spiritual program. We won’t ever become spiritual giants. But if we look at ourselves realistically, we’ll probably realize that we’ve been doing better than we’ve been feeling.


Just for today: I will examine myself realistically. I will seek the power to act on my best motives, and not to act on my worst.

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Remorse | JFT, Feb. 26

“The Eighth Step offers a big change from a life dominated by guilt and remorse.”

Basic Text, p. 39


Remorse was one of the feelings that kept us using. We had stumbled our way through active addiction, leaving a trail of heartbreak and devastation too painful to consider. Our remorse was often intensified by our perception that we couldn’t do anything about the damage we had caused; there was no way to make it right.

We remove some of the power of remorse when we face it squarely. We begin the Eighth Step by actually making a list of all the people we have harmed. We own our part in our painful past.

But the Eighth Step does not ask us to make right all of our mistakes, merely to become willing to make amends to all those people. As we become willing to clean up the damage we’ve caused, we acknowledge our readiness to change. We affirm the healing process of recovery.

Remorse is no longer an instrument we use to torture ourselves. Remorse has become a tool we can use to achieve self-forgiveness.


Just for today: I will use any feelings of remorse I may have as a stepping-stone to healing through the Twelve Steps.

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